Hello!!
Well…where do I start? I could go on forever about why I stopped blogging. But to keep it simple and short, someone I don’t know tried to communicate with me about a friend I had a falling out with through this blog. I know we had our differences but I don’t think its nice when others take that as an oppurtunity to add oil to a burning fire.
The end story is, I neglected this blog.
During my time away from this blog, there was alot of time for me to do loads of soul searching, reflecting and coming to terms with afew things in my life.
And now I am lost for words.
I have come to terms with my bitter honours year. Which is probably the greatest triumph for me. I took up a Grad Dip in Biotech at the same Uni but at a different lab. And I had a real good time learning new skills. My lab was a chemical engineering lab and I had primarily a biological background. So when I first entered the world of chem eng, I thought I was probably committing suicide or something to that effect. But it was the perfect lab for me. It was refreshing for not only me but my supervisor and team mates as when I was testing out equipments for some portions of my lab work, I had a rather cynical opinion on the techniques since I thought in some aspects, the biological world was backwards but yet was far more efficient. I got to use instruments I would never have used otherwise, used terms I never knew and created friends outside of my biological sphere. lol I have myself a penpal from germany.
And the weirdest thing, my ex-supervisor, the psychotic one was transferred out of my Uni for reasons I don’t really know. Well, the whole lab including the head of Dept was transferred out.
My latest supervisor however was simply the best. Her primary goal in mind was for me to learn as many new skills as possible so that I can have a better job resume. I had the chance to work at the Australian Synchrotron and that my friend(s) is seriously seeing the rainbow after a very huge bout of rain. Who would have thought, I would be gaining experience from a place with the best equipments in town. And if, seriously if enough data is collected in the next few months or year, you could see my name on a journal. I say if, because, I am no longer a student and at the end of my term with the course, there was still afew unsettled issues with my project. I think I have regained back my confidence which I had lost together with a hope that someday, I could possibly undertake a PhD. Possibly.
At the end of my course, I have realised that Patience is a virtue you must have in life. And giving up is never the answer. And I choose to believe that with God’s grace anything is possible.
I think another important issue to raise is that if you think you’re suffering from depression or you know someone who is suffering from it, try and be there for them. And let me say this now, you can fight it without therapy and treatments and tablets. You can. All you need I think is an outlet to express anger, a HUGE distraction and lots and lots of love. And if you’re religious, you know prayers moves mountains. It does.
